Resolving to be Resolute

Yeah, it has been a month since I posted. In case you haven't guessed, morning sickness reared its ugly head and laid me low for a bit once again. Then I had a cold. Then a stomach bug (like what all this morning sickness had been training me for). And then Christmas vacation. Cristin's wedding. New Years. And a brand new horrid cold.

Despite rouge germs and morning sickness, it was a good month! But I am not sure I feel like catching up on a month of non-blogging. And a month or two ahead of that. So I might do that in a few days. But not today.

We finally have winter. Below zero nights mixed with warmer, snowy days. A good time to sit around cuddling, sneezing, coughing, and making funny faces when you feel like you should sneeze, but don't. The kids are all sniffling and coughing as well. Gilbert is on a nebulizer machine to help this wheezy thing he had. For some reason, he sits like a precious angel when Justin does it in the evening, but when I do it, he begins to do his impression of an Olympic gymnast--not much skill, but a lot of derring do.

And of course it is New Years. I decided to come up with some resolutions because I feel like I should. I would love to say I won't worry as much, I will be more healthy in eating and exercise, keep my house clean, pay off credit cards, and not procrastinate. It is important to remember though that I am feeling more like a hibernating bear than an Olympic gymnast with derring do, so I have decided to simplify my resolutions.

1. I won't worry as much--sort of nebulous. How do I gauge this? Do I keep track of how many times I am convinced my family or I have a dread disease? Or how long I lay awake in the middle of the night imagining all that could possibly go wrong in life? That is a toughie. So instead....

1 Revised. I won't read the news anymore. This might not seem connected, but it IS! I read articles everyday about everything that has gone wrong in the world, all the current and projected health scares, and how every person running for president on ANY ticket is really out for himself and not the country. It contributes to worrying and thinking life is futile. Plus I waste time doing this which would be better employed doing some of my other resolutions, which if I actually DID, might make me worry less.

2. I will be more healthy in eating and exercise. The two big E's. Since I am in my second trimester, this isn't something I can do with much grandeur or impressive results. I know I am going to get fatter. And the doctor told me I can't lose weight. So any major change will have to be after Gosha (Orianna's name for baby that has stuck) is born. Still, I already have gestational diabetes, which means I probably already HAD diabetes or at least pre-diabetes before getting pregnant, so I have to change how I eat. This is a lot more propelling when the doctor discusses the chances of having to put me on insulin and possible complications with birth.

2 Revised. I will not eat desert and I will do a walking DVD. Since I am not allowed to lose weight, but I have to totally change how I eat, I have decided the easiest thing would be to stop eating desert and eat more healthy-ish food. Peanut butter whole wheat toast with milk falls into the healthy-ish category. And it is the best thing for not raising my blood sugar. How about that. A win-win. And I have heard wonderful recommendations for Leslie Sansones walking DVDs. One is on it's way to my house from Amazon as I type.

3. I will keep my house clean. Yeah, I really wish I could. I have had some success with keeping laundry clean and doing dishes. Occasionally I have a burst of energy and I organize something. For now....

3 Revised. I will keep dishes and laundry clean. I like to put clean in there because if the laundry doesn't somehow get folded, I will still be keeping my resolution. Although I would like to have a sofa instead of a fabulously cushy laundry holder as the centerpiece of our living room.

4. Pay off credit cards. I did cut them all up, so you would think it should be simple; we pay some each month and eventually we are out of debt. Well we are paying a little each month and much of our debt is under a nice 0% interest balance transfer, but it just isn't moving along like we had planned. A new van, registration, heating oil, things happen. So for now....

4 Revised. We will not ADD to our credit card debt. This isn't patriotic, since the economy wants everyone to spend, but if politicians are just out for themselves, I figure we can just be looking out for ourselves and let the economy muddle along without our support. I dare say it will.

5. I will not procrastinate. Ha. Procrastination is woven into my base layer. I think I may fall apart if I try to remove this from my life. What would I think about if I stopped worrying AND procrastinating? Scary. I might have original thoughts rather than a running " I have GOT to get this done" list. Plus, did you notice the part where I feel more like a bear hibernating? THEY aren't rushing around doing. Hibernating bears don't have to procrastinate I guess, since sleeping is the only thing on their agenda. Although some of them give birth while hibernating. So....

5 Revised. I will become more like a hibernating bear. Our house will be snug, cozy, and EMPTY. I will get rid of STUFF! I will simplify my agenda (I tell ya! It has been overflowing. Some days I have to run errands!) to sleeping. I will give birth to a cute little fat thing and cuddle it a lot. I wonder if there is some way to not have to eat for 5 months..... Besides starvation. I am not into that. And I guess I will avoid the furry mama bear look. Although mama bears, with all their fur, certainly aren't running down to the mountain stream doing laundry all the time. Tough choice.......

There. Five resolutions revised to fit my pregnant life. Whew. A day's work. I think I will go sleep.

Oh and Happy New Year to you all.

PS Next time, say the beginning of February, I will post pictures. I know. You are just dying.